Good morning! I hope everyone had a wonderful weekend.
F called me Friday night and we talked for probably an hour, we haven't done that in a long, long time. It was a good conversation. In fact, he told me that the reason why he is distant is because he doesn't trust himself with me. He could very easily be in a serious relationship with me and it scares the crap out of him because he has screwed up all of the others in the past. He continued to say that he is probably screwing this up too by the way he is handling it. I told him, yes you are. I am past the stage of "crying myself to sleep" or sitting in the corner sucking my thumb but I still love the man. Oh, for the record I really didn't sit in the corner sucking my thumb. I did, however, shed a few tears. He asked me to go to a movie with him. He didn't say when. I guess he won some movie tickets. I told him that was nice to ask me and he told me that "it was our thing".
Then there is 6-pack. I have been getting emails from him every chance he gets to get on a computer. Poor guy. His family and all his friends are telling him what they want to do when he gets back and where they want to take him. He told me last night that he really just wants to lay low the two weeks he is off and sleep in a real bed. Do you believe that these men and women that are fighting for our country, being shot at daily, living in 115 degree heat, away from their loved ones for a minimum of 6 months come home and they get two weeks off. Two weeks?! Our congressmen and women take more time off at the local spa, for pete's sake! It just really aggravates me. Our servicemen and women deserve more.
Ok, onto the Monday morning weigh-in. It was not pleasant. I am not recording it. I am going to weigh myself again in the morning to see if there is any difference because it put me 6 lbs up from last week! Now, several variables are mixed into that. I had that pizza earlier in the week, I haven't journaled the past couple of days, TOM is coming and I am not happy about it. He is bringing bloaty, crampy and fatty with him. So, I am not overly concerned about this 6 lbs. I know I didn't eat an extra 18,000 + calories for the week.
I am prepared today. Bring it on!