Friday, August 29, 2008
I subscribed to a tip list at some point regarding weight loss and occasionally there are some good tips and this is the one from today that I wanted to share.
Don't focus on your weight loss, focus on making these simple lifestyle changes every day. Did you know you always get what you focus on? If you think about your weight all the time, you'll get more weight and it will be harder to lose it. If you focus on making small lifestyle changes, enjoying your life, being happy and following the suggestions in this guide, your weight loss will be almost automatic.
It hit me, maybe I have been so obsessed with the scale that it is hurting me. I weigh myself almost every morning so for starters, I will only do it once a week. Baby steps, ya know. Maybe there is some unconscious thing going on that I don't realize.
Ok, I have to share this because it is driving me nuts...
This came from 6pack the other day. This has been what I have been mulling over. Some of you already have seen it and told me what you thought. I hope you all are right :).
Tribulations of a poet in black ink. With him, trying to express into words of his love. Writing one minute, blank the next. Can he explain to her, or will she see? Poems line his soul, on paper, in thought. Where his words inflect her. Who is this poet that walks in fear? Will he ensure her of himself with these words? Can he finish this poem, or has it just begun?
This man has my stomach in knots. Oh, and the good news is his boss might be trying to get him home even earlier...yay!
Thursday, August 28, 2008
Today is a breakfast recipe, seeing as breakfast is usually a difficult meal for me seeing as I hate oatmeal. I try it and try it and try it with the hopes that one day my tastes buds will jump for glee. Each time, I vow that I will never dry the paste again.
Oatmeal seems to be a miracle food in some ways. Those that eat it every day seem to lose more weight. It could be coincidental. So, on the WW forums someone gave me a recipe to try. I haven't tried it yet, although I do plan to when I get the ingredients on my next shopping trip.
And here it is...
(not sure who it actually came from, it's been passed around - WW member)
1/2 cup uncooked oatmeal
1 cup fat free milk
1/4 tsp vanilla extract
1 tsp Splenda
1 tsp FF vanilla pudding mix
Optional 1/2 cup berries Instructions
Mix all ingredients together and bring to heat over medium heat until thickened. I like to add 1/2 cup of frozen blueberries. It's a dream! It's also a pretty big portion.
Wednesday, August 27, 2008
I got an email from him this morning about his evening. There is a girl over there that all the guys give a really hard time to about being there. She doesn't belong, blah blah blah. He sticks up for her. She invited him over last night to watch a movie. She then proceeded to tell him that he is just so easy to talk to and approachable. She then tells him that it is something in his eyes. He said it made him super uncomfortable. I think she is making the moves on him, the little tramp...lol. I don't have any claim to him but damn it, leave him alone! LOL
The doctor wants to try me on that Topomax. It is fairly expensive so I am going to do it through the mail order pharmacy. What's nice is that it is also being prescribed for headaches these days and if there is a side effect of weight loss, I'm all for it. The more the merrier :).
Oh, BTW those that asked for a special viewing seeing as they lived on the west coast..email me. LOL.
Tuesday, August 26, 2008
So far, our winners (this could change by next week) are going to be Lynn, PTG and Manuela and not necessarily in that order.
I was doing a little research yesterday online about slow thyroids and weight problems and came across a medical site that mentioned a few pills that doctors prescribe to help with weight loss. One of them is used to treat epilepsy. The name of is it is Topamax. A friend of mine who I work with lost a bunch of weight while she was taking epilepsy medication. I asked her if it was the same. Hmmm....wheels start turning. I found that many doctors are starting to prescribe it in low doses to help with weight loss. I might ask my doctor about it today. I know some of you are probably going to give me a hard time about it (that's ok). I need something to give me that jump start. This playing with the same five pounds for 8 months has really gotten to me. I will have the week where I finally feel like I passed the mark, only to be right back there the following week. My body is just not letting go. I even looked up lap band surgery yesterday but I don't think I could ever do that. I am pretty vain so am deathfully afraid of extra skin.
I go back to the doctor's today and am hoping maybe she can help me out with this, either with recommending a nutritionist, telling me to cut further on points, giving me a pill that might help, anything.
I will keep you posted.
P.S. 6pack is doing well..sends poetry to my phone the last couple of mornings :) Some of you have been asking about pictures of 6pack. Right now I only have one and it's not a great picture, he is goofing off with one of his army mates. If I was to post it, I would only post it for a little while simply because I don't want someone to come across my blog, see his picture and know him and tell him about the blog. Does that make sense? I know it is probably unlikely but weirder things have happened.
So here's the deal tomorrow I will post the picture from 8a-9a EST. :)
Monday, August 25, 2008
Last week, I ate what I wanted though and didn't go to the gym so won't be surprised if I am the biggest gainer. Oh well. What can you do, right? I will just keep plugging along.
I am going to try to give it a jump start this week though. I made a huge salad last night with cucumbers, carrots, onions, almonds and chicken breast. I brought it into work this morning and plan on having salad for lunch everyday this week. Maybe WW is giving me too many points and I should be eating less? I wish I knew the magic number! Now, that I am on the upped dosage of Synthroid, I hope that helps. Of course, I really don't know how long it takes for it to really kick in.
6pack...oh my what can I say about 6pack other than if I get my hands on that man, I am not letting him go. I will be one of those psycho women handcuffing him to my bed. Oh wait, that's another story for another blog (j/k). This man is absolutely incredible. Of course, I am also a bit cynical (as I should be). I am getting text messages from him now and they are just so incredibly sweet. Is it possible that there are romantic men in existance? or is it one of those things where they are telling you all the things you want to hear and then *bam it's gone once they have you hooked?
Friday, August 22, 2008
I did finally hear back from my doctor yesterday regarding all my tests. Boob smashing = OK, kidneys/bladder = OK, Diabetes = negative, Lupus panel = OK, thyroid = not ok. My thyroid is still very low. They have yet to get me in the right range, although I am closer than I was years ago. When I first was diagnosed with an underactive thyroid the number was 192. Sounds like a high number, right? The high number to me would suggest that I had an overactive thyroid but they do funky things in medicine. The "normal" range is between 0 and 5 although all the research I have done shows that 2 is closer to optimal. They have now upped my synthroid to 200mg. Everything else was fine on my blood tests except my triglercides. She said it was borderline high at 174. From what I have read that could be because of the low thyroid. Hopefully, with new thyroid meds I can start seeing some results on the scale. The past week, I haven't counted points and have pretty much ate what I want (within reason), so it's time to focus again! Now, that I am feeling a bit better it's time to get back in the gym too!
9 more days to roommate being gone, about 35 more days for 6pack to come home and about 35 more days for F to get his head out of his ass..hehe. However, I will tell you a little secret. If 6pack and I hit it off (which I am thinking we will) , he wins. I care about F and will always care about F, but I'm not sure he will ever be ready to give me what I need from him. 6pack can give me what I need and seems to want to give me what I need. He would also look damn good on my pillow. I did not just say that. Shame on me...:P
Thursday, August 21, 2008
I am cranky today. I'm not sleeping well because of the mung.
I stop at 7-11 this morning for coffee and the line tends to back up in the mornings for the register. I am trying to get to the coffee and these two women are standing there in the middle of the aisle way and don't move over. I said excuse me. They just looked at me. I did say excuse me again, a bit louder instead of "get the fuck out of my way" :). The woman started to do her head/eye roll at me but she did move about an inch over. You know the roll that some women do. Thanks lady! Then of course, another guy is in the aisle where the coffee is, just kind of standing there with no purpose. Do you think he moves to one side to let people get through...of course not. Just let me get my coffee, then take up all the room you want.
So now, I am at my desk and one of my co-workers comes in. Everyday she is the one that comes into my office to bitch about something and I just sit and listen and nod my head. Today she comes in to give me shit. She tells me that my timecard is in the safe. Ok, thanks. Oh, but that's not it. She then proceeds to tell me that last week she passed them out because I left them on my desk. We get them almost two weeks ahead of time. I was busy. Get off my back! I have been passing them out for the past 2 years and everyone has gotten paid, right? She says, "I don't know why you are even the one that is getting them". Oh, because it is such a job of honor to pass out the timecards. I didn't ask to be the one responsible for them. Please by all means have someone demote me from the timecard passing out job! I am so tired of her holier than thou crap. We have had words in the past when she gets into the Queen mode and I haven't been the only one.
Just step off. Don't mess with a woman that is sick, hasn't had good sleep in days and TOM is visiting. Talk about the perfect storm?
I am not prepared for Recipe Thursday, so I am slacking on my duties today and I am willing to bet none of you are going to give me shit for it either, are ya? :P
Tuesday, August 19, 2008
I had thought about not even writing about F here anymore, but sometimes it helps to write things out and I have already brought him out in the open, so what's the difference.
F sent me a text last night telling me to be careful today (because of the storm). I am actually kind of surprised I heard from him considering the way we left the things on the phone the other day. In the 8 months that I have been "seeing" him, I had never been mad at him before and we have never fought. I told him to take care and hung up. I am not making any effort anymore. I am tired of putting forth the effort. I know many of you think that I should have stopped putting forth effort a long time ago and that's ok. As I have said before, he is a good man and is worth the effort but not until he can deal with his deep rooted issues. I don' t know if that will ever happen. So, in the meantime it needs to be about me for once. It never is about me, it's a damn good time for it to start being about ME.
Now, if I could just feel better (you know, like being able to breathe) I could get to the gym!
Some of you left remarks about 6pack yesterday that just made me smile. I don't know what will happen with him, if anything but I am doing my patriotic responsibility by keeping his spirits up while in Iraq. :) I know that was a stretch with the patriotic ramble...hehe.
Now, what if..this is a big if...what if F gets his head out of his ass and figures out that he just threw away something wonderful at the same time that 6pack comes home and wants to date me. Hmm, what will I do? I have never been one to date more than one at a time but I might have to make an exception cuz I will have to date 6pack just to see if he really is "Noah".
Oh BTW, today is the Blogger Challenge Update and I will be updating those later. I just wanted to see if there were going to be more weigh ins before the update. I think maybe the challenge went on too long, people are losing steam (or maybe it's me losing steam). I think I will host another (no prizes) but not right away. I think we need time to give this one a rest first. We only have a couple more weeks. Go ladies!
For me, not having much to report this turned into a long post of rambling.
Monday, August 18, 2008
I am dragging ass today though. Now, that everything else seems to be going ok again, I started getting a sore throat yesterday and spent most of the night coughing even after taking some cough medicine. If it's not one thing, it's another. Phooey! I feel ok other than a sore throat and being tired as hell. I wanted to try a class at the gym this week but not sure if I will get there tonight or not. It was cardio salsa. I will let you know how it goes when I finally make it to one.
I have to give an update on 6pack. We talked online for hours yesterday. This man is absolutely amazing. Have you ever seen The Notebook? Remember Noah, the man we always wish we would find? 6pack is Noah. Now, of course I do have this cynical side (the 20 years of dating men has done that...hehe) but any woman would be lucky to have 6pack in their life. 6pack is currently a part of my life but not in any romantic sense, although the flirting is definitely there. It appears that 6pack may want more. The best thing is...he is emotionally available! Ladies, they do exist!
So let's see...F is more like the guy from King of Queens (who by the way pissed me off yesterday..but that's another story I am not going to get into right now). 6pack is Noah. 6pack writes poetry, 6pack believes in romance, 6pack is starting to sound like a much better choice more and more...lol.
Friday, August 15, 2008
We are supposed to nominate 7 other people. I, however can't nominate just 7. I tried in the past. All of you bring something to the table. So, not because I am lazy in choosing 7 but because I don't want to (throws tantrum). I want to give it all to you. Quite frankly, if you come to my blog for my dry humor you deserve an award for that. You all are phenomenal women that give me inspiration, motivation, moral support, a kick in the ass, laughs and the list goes on and on. So here's to you blog ladies! (insert Budweiser commercial voice here).
Thursday, August 14, 2008
I am in pretty good spirits and not stressing out too much over whatever my issue is. No use stressing, right? Not much I can do about the outcome. I have mentally prepared myself for any bad news (kind of). I was talking to my mother the other night about it and she tells me that I shouldn't be looking on the Internet for possible problems because I just get stressed about it. She is probably right. I wish I could be more like her and just not worry about it until you get the news from the doctor. I am the one that goes searching for every possible problem with my symptom and expect the worse, hope for the best. F didn't see me online yesterday and texted me late yesterday afternoon asking me if I was mad at him. I messaged back telling him I was at dr's office all day. He called me last night to see if everything was ok. Awww, brownie points for him. Then this morning, he messaged me to see if I was feeling any better. Awww, more brownie points. See when you become less available, they become more available. It's funny how that works.
Oh, and I promise I will update the challenge status later today!
Oh and another thing (these darn afterthoughts), the scale is playing with me again. It shows me 4lbs down. Cross your fingers for me that it will show that on Monday when I do my official weigh in....the little bastard.
Ok, onto a recipe. Hmm, let me think. Ok, I made this recently, it's fairly low in points, very filling and cheap to make.
Package of Butterball Turkey Sausage
2 green pepper
2 tbs olive oil
Seasoning (your choice)
I cut up everything into small pieces and throw in a pan and until potatoes are browned and cooked all the way through. I use it for breakfast, lunch or dinner and it makes a bunch. I want to say about 7 servings and about 7 pts for each serving.
Wednesday, August 13, 2008
So off I go to the boob smasher and the kidney prodder. This lady was nice for the first 10 seconds, then she changed. She was manhandling my boobs and quite frankly just not very nice or comforting. Luckily, my breast contortion didn't take very long and I could get dressed again to walk across the hall to get undressed again. This time though, I got this fashionable paper gown that opens in the back....mmm sexy! This lady was very nice, probably because she kept stabbing me with the needle to inject the dyes. Apparently if you miss the vein or go through it, you start to feel a stinging sensation. I felt, just that! I don't have the most cooperative veins and the bitch blood monster from earlier had already tapped the good one. Now, she has put a hole in the other decent one. She is now asking for help from the others. They move to my other arm. Another hole in the vein...still no worky. Now, they move down to my forearm and inject the dye there. Picture this...I have wads of cotton all over my arms taped up. Looks like a drug trip, gone bad.
So, I am home now. I was supposed to go into work but quite frankly after the castor oil, the dye, the smashing, the poking, the prodding I am not feeling very well. On the way home, I was starving (because I had to fast) and quite frankly, didn't give a damn how many calories, how much fat or how much fiber was in what I ate. I picked up one of those pizza for ones from Dejourno, or however you want to spell it. I look at that calories now...*#%& but again right now I just don't care. It could have been worse, I could have gotten the full size.
So now I wait...
P.S. I will update the blogger challenge status tomorrow.
Tuesday, August 12, 2008
So, I tell my doctor all my woes..the peeing, the 9lb weight loss over night with a 2lb gain for the week, my fatigue, my smoking...all of it. So, tomorrow morning I am going to be poked, prodded, boobs smashed, warm dye going through my veins, you name it..it's being done. I had to pee in a cup, which normally is a problem. Not lately, I can pee in a cup probably every 1/2 hour. They found microscopic traces of blood so they are going to do a culture. She asked me if I have ever had kidney stones. Nope. I am also not feeling any pain, so I assume it's not a kidney stone (God, help me if it is!) I asked her to do a full workup on my thyroid instead of just the TSH to make sure we are in the right range. We have never gotten to the right range. She is doing cholesterol, she is doing a Lupus profile. It is quite possible that my Lupus is starting to give me issues. It has never involved my organs, I really do pray that it's not starting now. She will be checking for diabetes. Can't forget the other test, I get to put my boobs in a vice for a baseline mammogram because I am 36. I have never had one, but I don't imagine it is all that fun. Then to top all of that off, I have to go to the store later and get castor oil. For whatever reason, I need to take 4 tbs of castor oil tonight before I go to bed. Yummy!
*sigh...time to use the bathroom again.
I am going to the doc today. For the past month or so, I am constantly having to use the bathroom. It has gotten so bad, that I get up 5-6x a night (you would think I would be burning a crapload more of calories for as often as I have to go). I never had to get up in the middle of the night before to use the bathroom. It's ridiculous. I am getting crabby because, obviously I am not getting good sleep. I don't know what is wrong...whether it's me drinking tea (did that before), bladder infection that I am not aware of, diabetes (YIKES) or my Lupus has finally gotten a hold of my kidneys..so many worries.
So wish me luck!
Monday, August 11, 2008
In other news, 6pack is coming home in 40 days!!! 6pack and I are perfect for each other "on paper". Who knows about, in person. Have I told you I have never met him in person? We have known each other almost a year and have never met. The plan is to meet when he gets back. Yikes! How can I lose 50 lbs in 40 days? LOL
So, I am perusing the Internet and I come across the Mexican guy that was 1200 lbs and is now down to 700. I have always wondered how someone manages to get to 1200 lbs. So, then I see a video of a little girl, and it is sickening.
If you watch the video, watch what the kid is eating. At this stage of her life, Mom should be doing the right thing and eating nutritious meals. I just want to go beat the crap out of this kid's mom right now. She is 7 years old and over 400 lbs.
Ok, after looking for her on the net, found that she is 9 now and down to 150 lbs. Still entirely too much, but WTF? How could you let your 7 year old child get to that point without getting some help?
Friday, August 8, 2008
I will be practicing balance today. I went to the gym last night and afterwards a good friend of mine called and asked if I wanted to get some dinner. I figured, sure why not I can get a salad or something reasonable. Her kids wanted to go to Barnhill's. If you don't know what that is, it's a buffet. My problem with buffets isn't overeating, it's what I eat. I never feel like I really get my money's worth. I went anyway.
Here's what I had..
- Salad with approx. 2 tbs egg, 2tbs cheese and 1/8 cup thousand island dressing
- Sausage & Sauerkraut - didn't have any sauerkraut, took 4 pieces of sausage that were cut in 1/2" slices.
- 3 hushpuppies
- 1/4 cup mashed potatoes
- 1/4 cup mac & cheese (it was gross too)
- 1 roll
- 1 thingy of butter
- 1/3 slice of cheesecake
Thursday, August 7, 2008
Some of you asked about the tips I receive in my email from Jillian and how to get them. Here is her page.
On to the recipe....
Someone mentioned creme brulee the other day and I absolutely love creme brulee, so I had found a recipe on the WW site. I have not tried it yet so don't hate me if you don't like it. If you do try it, let me know how it is!
Blueberry Almond Creme Brulee
POINTS® Value: 3
Preparation Time: 15 min
Cooking Time: 45 min
Level of Difficulty: Moderate
- 1 cup fat-free evaporated milk
- 1/2 cup 1% low-fat milk
- 3 Tbsp sugar
- 1 tsp almond extract
- 1 tsp vanilla extract
- 1/4 tsp table salt
- 1/8 tsp ground nutmeg
- 2 large egg(s)
- 2 medium egg white(s)
- 1 cup blueberries, fresh or frozen and thawed
- 2 Tbsp slivered almonds, toasted
- 1 Tbsp sugar
- Preheat oven to 300°F.
- In blender, combine evaporated milk through to nutmeg and blend for 1 minute. Add eggs and egg whites; blend until smooth. Stir in blueberries.
- Pour mixture evenly into six 6-ounce baking dishes coated with cooking spray. Place dishes in 9 x 13-inch baking pan filled 1/2-inch high with water. Bake until knife inserted in center comes out clean, about 45 minutes.
- Preheat broiler. Remove baking dishes from pan and sprinkle each with 1 teaspoon almonds and 1/2 teaspoon sugar.
- Place baking dishes on baking sheet and broil until sugar melts, about 2 to 3 minutes.
1/2 cup Egg Beaters (2)
1 1/2 cups Ore Ida Potatoes (2)
3 slices precooked bacon (2)
Coffee w/creamer (3)
1/4 cup lite maple syrup (2)
Huge plain 'ol salad (0)
1/8 cup thousand island dressing (3.5)
Potato Skins (9.5)
Pizza burrito (5)
1 cup fiesta corn (1.5)
1 cup 1% milk (2)
1 rice krispie (2)
Total Points Used: 34.5 Points (allowed 33) Activity: day off from gym
Tuesday, August 5, 2008
Anyway, here is the tip I received in my email and thought I would share. Cheating is no longer part of my vocabulary!
It's Not About Cheating
For some people, eating more to make up for a caloric deficit on a particular day feels like cheating. To them, I say: Cheating doesn't exist. Try to banish that concept entirely. This is not about cheating; it's about balance. If you happen to eat more than your plan requires on one day, work out harder and eat less the next. "Cheating" is a gross word with negative connotations that imply you're "bad" in some way. Forget that word! Some days we eat less, and some we eat more. In the long run, as long as the more moderate days outweigh the less moderate days, you will achieve weight loss. It's that simple.
However, if you find that you're frequently short on calories at the end of the day, you might try planning your meals more carefully. Take a look at some of the program's sample menus so you can see how I spread calories throughout the day. Go for higher-calorie snacks, like raw or dry-roasted nuts. Keep in mind that there are many higher-calorie foods that are still healthy. For example, hearty whole-grain bread can have up to 120 calories per slice, while other kinds may have only 60. Choose your products based on your individual needs. Increasing your portions a bit in each meal might also help.
Day Two of Perfect Week Update:
1/2 cup Egg Beaters (2)
1 1/2 cups Ore Ida Potatoes (2)
3 slices precooked bacon (2)
Coffee w/creamer (3)
4 oz provolone/olive stuffed chicken breast (6)
4 pierogies (4.5)
1/2 cup broccoli/cauliflower (0)
1 cup grapes (1)
4 slices whitewheat bread (4)
3 tbs light cream cheese (3)
1 cup cucumbers (0)
Total Points Used: 29.5 Points (allowed 33)
Activity: 3 points earned
15 min stationary bike 3.3 miles
15 min treadmill @3 mph
5 min treadmill @3.1 mph
Monday, August 4, 2008
Day 1 Recap: It was a good day. I stuck to my menu pretty much with a couple of exceptions. I had some olives left over from making the provolone/olive chicken breast so that was 3.5 more points added to my day. I also had 1 cup of 1% milk with dinner so for the day I went over by 1 point. Seeing as I get 35 weekly flex points to use however I want, I was totally on plan for everything....water, veggies, fruit, healthy oils, dairy. I also went to the gym. You are ready to congratulate me, aren't you? Well, to be honest I didn't stay as long as I normally would but it was really kicking my ass today. It's a feat in itself that I actually went to the gym on a Monday. I only did 10 minutes on the bike for 1 mile and 15 minutes on the treadmill @ 3mph. I only earned 2 activity points but that's ok, today is another day. I know, I know you're thinking I should have worked out longer. You're right, but my body wasn't agreeing today so get off my back :P.
Hope everyone had a great Monday!
Now, that the soul searching portion of today's entry is complete, on to the good stuff. I lost a pound...yay so I am down a total of 12.4 pounds. WOO HOO!!! That is a 10lb sack of potatoes and two boxes of butter! Well, technically if we use my last week's weigh in I lost like 7 pounds but that's really not accurate because TOM likes to get in the way and piss me off...lol. I am finally in the plus percentage for the challenge and now am at my lowest since I started in December. This is a big thing for me. I think, no I know, I am no longer going to play with those same five pounds.
I had a wonderful weekend, which included F :). I think he is coming to his senses and I will leave it at that for now.
Meal Plan for Monday
1 1/2 cup ore ida hashbrowns (lightly sprayed with Pam to cook) 2 pts
1/2 cup Egg Beaters (2)
3 slices ready cooked bacon (2)
coffee w/ 3 creamers (3)
9 pts (I really need to get rid of the coffee, is it really worth the 3pts?)
4 slices of whitewheat bread (4) - for cucumber sandwiches
3 tbs light cream cheese (3)
1/2 cucumber (0)
1 cup grapes (1)
1/2 cucumber (0)
1 cup grapes (1)
provolone/olive chicken breast (6)
4 pierogies sauteed with onions (no oil) (4.5)
2 cups mixed roasted vegetables (0)
28.5 points Total (I get 33) Hmm, I might be able to have a 90 calorie rice krispie treat for dessert :)