Wednesday, October 29, 2008
Belly Dancing = Improvement in Self Confidence
I feel like I have been going to belly dancing classes forever now but I just looked back into my blog history and it looks like last night was my 5th class. I still feel like a baffoon but the instructor says I don't give myself enough credit. She says I have natural talent. I don't see it. Of course, that could still have something to do with me wearing workout clothes to the class. It's hard to be in the "groove" without the attire. I wear my coin scarf over my gym clothes. Are you getting a visual? Sexy, huh? hehe. Once a month, there is a restaurant that has belly dancers come in and dance. I guess anyone can participate and we are talking about going next month. I am not going to participate, at least not yet. If I was to ever perform like that, that will be a huge thing for me. That might be another fear to overcome someday. I have a feeling as I lose more weight, my self confidence is going to improve (I see it already) and the things that I have feared for so long will no longer seem so scary. I can start really living. It's a shame that I have used my weight as a crutch for my entire life. I still continue to do so but I am seeing improvement. I am excited about really living but one step at a time. One day at a time, one belly dancing class at a time.