I have new bling today! 20 pounds baby and into the next decade! Woo hoo! I am doing the happy dance. You have absolutely no idea how wonderful this makes me feel and how motivated it makes me to continue.
I want to thank my thyroid pills, all you wonderful ladies for your support and kick in the asses and Diane for my bling!
So, I just lost a 20lb bag of dog food or 20 boxes of butter (ewwwwwwwwwwww). I must be one of those people that loses a little bit everywhere. F has also lost weight and it's all come off his belly so you can really see it. Me, I am not noticing much of a difference other than I see my thighs look like they are getting toned (YAY!), which could be the dancing classes.
A and insecurites down below...
I am so exhausted. I have been working like a dog, which is my excuse for my lack of participation in the blog world lately. I must apologize for not coming by to visit as frequently but time has just really been an issue. Ok, well if I cut out the time that I have been chatting with A, then I would have more time to come visit all of you wonderful ladies. Right now, A is going through a great deal. His father has cancer and is in the hospital right now and it is killing A. He hasn't said much about it the past couple of days but I do try to keep his mind off unhappy thoughts :). We were up to 5a Sunday morning just talking. The more we learn about each other, the more I want to go to his apt complex and just start knocking on every door until I find him. We still haven't met. His best friend did tell me why and he is afraid he won't live up to my expectations. It's funny, that men tend to have the same fears that we do (or maybe just the same fears that I do). That's one of the things I hate about meeting people that you have met over the Internet....is you don't have that physical first impression. I will say more on it in a sec. Granted, I never went out searching to meet him. He sort of fell in my lap through the game that I play. What are the odds? This is a game played by millions (am guessing the number) all over the WORLD, and here we are...him and I meet by chance and find out we live 30 minutes from each other.
Anyway, I'm just as scared to meet him. I like the way things are and am afraid that if we meet, that will change. I have seen it before. What if he has this unrealistic expectation of what I look like? Am I the only one that has issues with the whole weight thing? My friend C is always telling me I am being ridiculous (coming from the size 2 blonde) but she has never experienced the total shift in attitude when men find out that you aren't that size 2.
I have no idea what my point to this post was..hehe. Anyway, A and I are planning on meeting but we are both kind of testing the waters at this point. His best friend tells me that he really likes me but he has been burned in the past. He is nervous about me, or so she says (I seem to have that affect on men...it's voodoo..LMAO). I am ok with taking it slowly because I know that no matter what we will be friends and he would be a good friend to have (although I think he would make a nice pillow ornament too...hehe). Taking it slowly offers other advantages.. I can lose more weight so I am not as self conscious when I do meet him.
Oh, he sent me this song this morning and told me to listen to it. It's named Am I the One by Beth Hart. Check it out...powerful song and the lyrics are incredible. If you like Janice Joplin, she has been reincarnated.