Last week while I was out, there was word that my company laid off about 200 people (times are tough) and that there were about 16 from my department. I did not know who was laid off. When I went into work today, I messaged a co-worker and asked her if she knew. She said, "you haven't heard?" No. Our entire testing staff had been let go, some with over 15 years with the company. She was one of them. She asked me what my title was. I told her. She asked me if I had gotten an email about a mandatory meeting. I told her no. We thought I was safe. About an hour later I found out my boss was coming to town. I immediately felt like I couldn't breathe. See, I have been with the company 11 years. We have never had lay offs until last year. The economy has taken its toll and the company is doing what it can to continue to make money. I thought our department was safe considering we have been so shorthanded. Hell, I worked 95 hours in one week a couple of weeks ago and 70 something the following week. I had IM'd my boss earlier in the day and he responded and at that time I asked him, "do we have anything to be concerned about with you coming here today". His response, "no". Phew! I felt better. I told him, "Good, because I was wondering if I would have to pack up my desk today".
Around 2p today, he calls me into the office and another man is in there from HR. Oh shit, this isn't good. Ok, well I think maybe we just have to re-apply for our jobs. My boss' boss is on the phone from home office. He starts reading the "script". Times are tough..blah blah blah. I tune out...this decision is hard for us but...blah blah blah and then WHAM...."your last day will be November 26th". I have kept my composure so far but it's waning. I have been here 11 years. I have put my blood, sweat and tears into this place...literally. HR man, whom I know, goes over "the package" and asks if I have any questions. No. He leaves. I tell my boss that he lied to me. I asked him if I should be concerned and he told me no. He said, no you asked if we had any concerns. He said he know it was symantecs but he couldn't tell me over IM. My old boss, who is my friend also knew but couldn't tell me because that would have risked her job and she felt like a heel not being able to tell me. A friend of mine that left the company knew and didn't tell me. I was totally in the dark. It was very hard for my boss to do. We go back 11 years. He has been there for me through a lot in my life. He had tears in his eyes. He didn't want to let me go but didn't have a choice. All of the managers were given a list of positions to eliminate and I just happened to occupy one of them.
So, as of next Wednesday I am jobless. I am a bit scared and worried about it. What if I don't find a job? I have already started to look and will be updating my resume tomorrow. Hopefully, in the end this will be a blessing in disguise. It's sad. It's the end of an era. I'm sad.
I did go to the gym to try to get away from reality for a bit and did ask them about reduced rates. The Y doesn't turn anyone away because of money because I would like to keep my membership so I have that to fill out. Plans for this weekend....drink!