Thursday, May 29, 2008
Yesterday, after work I took an hour nap. I know better than to do this. When I take a nap late in the day, I can't sleep that night. Wouldn't you know it, I couldn't get to sleep last night despite me being exhausted. So, I am just a walking zombie. I can't even focus on the work that I need to get done and I am on deadline. Maybe I will put my head down on my desk during lunch :).
Quite frankly, I just want to go back to bed and sleep for a couple of months :).
Wednesday, May 28, 2008
Onto other news...
Anyway, I better get started on getting caught up with all of your blogs, and find out what challenges I am joining :).
Monday, May 26, 2008
From those of you that have signed up I need your starting weights (please
verify that what I have is correct, as of this morning). Some of you have
said that you don't weigh yourself on Mondays. I don't see that as a
problem as long as you update me each week. If you do not weigh yourself
on Mondays, please just send me a comment of when you do, to remind
If I have missed anyone or anyone else wants to join the challenge please
comment me with your name, blog name and your starting weight and I will add you
to the list. Here is additional information regarding the challenge.
I am also joining in for the challenge but if by chance I do win, I will not
take the prize and will give it to the next in line. I will also be
updating more later but wanted to get this out there.
- Manuela - A New Decade 167.5
- Lynne - One Foot Forward 262.4
- FB - Fat Bridesmaid 319
- Lynn - Hungry Little Caterpillar 194.2
- Kate - Weight 1 Day 315
- Jennifer - Fat as Hell 253.4
- Quarterlife Girl - Quarter Life Girl Gets Fit 164
- Skinny Inside - Skinny Inside 245
- Tina Behind the Wall 181
- Angie Losing It & Loving It 190
- Megan The Journey to a New Me 254
- Running Nan Running from the Pudge 160.5
- Fluffy Girl Fluffy Girl 224.2
- Trish Becoming a Better Me 375.2
- Rheay Rheay 200
- WeeLittleMe Little By Little 179.6
- MaryFran A New Start: Losing Weight 186.8
- Trisha True Story 212
- Jamie Making me "That Skinny Bitch" 162
- Ashley Sexy Bitch 201.6
- Jody Anything but Ordinary 312
- Nightmare Jack The Pursuit of Slim 187
- Blubba Fat Man, Skinny Wallet 303.8
- Bonnie Thinking Thin Too 27 7.2
***************************************************************************************************Today was my weigh-in and I have to say I am a bit frustrated. I have
been playing with those same pounds for months now and I still can't seem to
get past it. Hopefully, next week. I did get my new bike and I
like it :) I have been on it every night so far even if only for a couple
of minutes. Last night it was a game of Tetris and Blackjack.
Oh, and what happened to Blogger? I used to be able to edit my HTML here. *sigh
Friday, May 23, 2008
So all of this excitement starts Monday, don't forget!
If you don't know what the Bloggers' Biggest Loser Challenge is, read more here. In a nutshell, lose weight and you could win a prize! The challenge will go all summer long and the person that loses the largest percentage of weight wins. I have already had a few sign ups, which I will be listing Monday. The sign-up information is available on the original post and I will be posting all the information again on Sunday/Monday.
In other news, my mom went to the doctor yesterday and they found a spot on her liver too. I am starting to get a little concerned. I am trying hard not to think about it, it could very well be nothing. She has been healthy all my life and I can't remember her ever being sick other than minor colds. She doesn't go back to the doctor until next Thursday so please keep her in your prayers that it is nothing.
Thursday, May 22, 2008
If it wouldn't have been for this challenge, I probably still would have gone to the gym but I probably wouldn't have pushed myself so hard, so thanks FB.
I have read that you're body burns energy from two different energy sources, glycogen and fat. It must burn an adequate amount from your glycogen stores before burning from your fat stores. weight training burns primarily glycogen in your body, and cardio burns primarily fat (of course, this information varies depending on who you ask). Based on that information, I started out with the weights. I am not comfortable yet to wander into the guys' realm of free weights so I work on the machines. Maybe when I don't feel like the fat chick, I will wander over there but until then it's the machines.
I ended up doing 25 minutes of weight training on my arms, while occasionally catching glimpses of the eye candy to the left of me. Of course, I have to admit the eye candy has been degrading lately. There was one man that I used to see there...oh my. That's all I can say is OH MY. Anyway, I digress.
25 minutes down, need at least 35 more. Ughh, I didn't want to but I forged ahead. Most of the cardio equipment is full. There are a couple of treadmills open and an elliptical. I am afraid of the elliptical. Yes, literally afraid. I have been on it once when I first joined the gym and I didn't like it. It seemed really hard on the knees. I don't know what the resistance was set at but I didn't want to look like a baffoon messing around with it so have never tried it again. Someday. The Cybex if you know what those are, kick my ass. Again, I haven't been on it since the day I joined because that day I thought you were going to have to get me a body bag after 5 minutes. Again, someday.
I grabbed a treadmill. This treadmill faces the window so I can look out at the pool. Ahh, I would much rather be in that pool instead of sweating like a hog on the treadmill. About 7 minutes into it, I notice this girl and guy walk by the pool. She is much younger than me. I would probably guess she was around 18 maybe. I couldn't help but stare at her. I would guesstimate her height to be around 5'5 and about 300 pounds, probably more. She was wearing a bathing suit that wasn't very flattering. I thought to myself, "Wow, I wish I had the courage like that to walk around in front of strangers in my bathing suit". That thought quickly turned to pity. I wanted to tell her to come inside and get on a treadmill. I wondered about her story. Had she always been overweight? Had she tried dieting? Did she even care? Or is she one of the lucky ones that has a high self esteem and is happy with their body exactly the way it is?
I hated the treadmill. I watch every minute on the clock. This girl in the swimming suit offered extra incentive to me to keep going. I even added another .1 mph to my speed. I was going to stop at 10 minutes, but forced myself to go 15. Then, off to the bikes.
I decided that I would use the recumbant bike instead of the stationary. The recumbant really kills my feet, I'm not sure why. I would, probably normally use it as an excuse to stop but I didn't. I was determined to get to that 60 minutes if it killed me. 23 minutes later, I stumbled off the recumbant bike feeling wonderful about the fact that I just made it 63 minutes! What an awesome feeling of accomplishment!
I can't help but to think about swimsuit girl and how she got to where she is. We all have our stories, some started from the day we entered this world. Other stories have started after childbirth. Some just started. We can't change the beginning chapters of our stories, but we can change the future chapters. Only we can change our stories, no one else.
I know how mine will continue. I will continue to do my best to adopt a healthy lifestyle. I know I won't be perfect all the time and I will accept that without guilt. I know the scale is not always going to show me what I want to see (it didn't again this morning, piece of #*$) and I will accept that and not give up.
Do you know how your story will continue?
A couple more things:
Don't forget, Monday marks the start of the Summer Blog Party and my Biggest Loser Challenge.
Check this out: Here is a picture at my highest weight about a year ago....289. It's a horrible picture but I had to show you this.
Wednesday, May 21, 2008
Monday night I really wanted to ride my bike but my bike has had flat tires for some time. I had bought a bike pump a few months ago for this reason. I can't find it. I cleaned my garage a couple of months ago and everything has its place and still no bike pump. I am not happy about it. I spent another 10 minutes looking for it last night and still nothing. *sigh. I guess I will have to go back to the store and get another one.
Then, in other news my mom has to go back to the doctor. They found a spot on one of her lungs. Now, my mom has never smoked a day in her life so am hoping it is just some old scar tissue. I will hopefully know more tomorrow. I am trying not to stress over it because there is nothing I can do about it anyway. It is what it is, but still so hard to not dwell on it.
Tuesday, May 20, 2008
I tried it last night. I didn't finish it. It would be a lot of fun if I could get the steps down. I wonder how long it took the girls on the tape to get the moves down. I really wish there was information on the pamphlet with a timeline of how long I can expect it will take me to learn it. 5 minutes - for really coordinated, 10 minutes - for somewhat coordinated, 15 min - there's still hope to be coordinated or two months for klutzes. I would fit in the last category, I think. Even though I didn't finish the tape, I think it will be a lot of fun once I can get the moves down a bit better. I really wish the Y would start some salsa classes. That is one class I think I would enjoy.
Monday, May 19, 2008
It was kind of a downer weekend for me. I really only get to spend time with F one day a week and that is normally Saturdays. He started up some classes again at the college and had been a little late in getting his books and so was already a week behind in his classes. We spent about an hour together on Saturday before I reluctantly went home so he could study.
Then, I spent 3 hours trying to fix my #*%&! toilet. Part of my problem was when I was trying to remove its innards, I was screwing instead of unscrewing. Uh duh! So, when I realized what I was doing I tried unscrewing...hmm, still not working. At this point, I just want to rip the toilet out of the bloody floor. Breathe! Another duh moment! The nut to loosen is on the outside of the toilet. OK, now we are making progress. I replace it with the new one, put the supply tube back in, turn the water back on and you thought it was fixed? NO! I have water gushing out of the toilet from beneath. *sigh It's leaking from the supply tube and from the bottom of the tank. I am beginning to think an outhouse in the backyard is starting to sound like a good idea. Ok, breathe! I take it back apart and put it back together again, pray and turn the water back on. Yes, it's not leaking! I am watching the water rise in the tank and waiting for it to stop, it doesn't stop. *sigh again. This is the problem I had before replacing the innards, it never stopped. I am bending the rod that the floaty thing is on, still running. I bend it some more, it breaks. I call F. He thinks I am being moody. No, I am not #*$&(% moody, I am frustrated honey. He said he would come look at it but it couldn't be tonight. Anyone that knows me knows that I won't wait. I will keep messing with it and either break it totally or fix it. I get another toilet repair kit (because they don't sell just the stinking rods) and this time bend it near the pvc thingy and turn the water back on. Please, please stop when you're suppose to. God, please make the water stop where it is supposed to. It really is in the best interest of my sanity to make it stop. The water stops! Yay, my prayers have been answered. Now, if only all the other ones that really, really mattered could be answered. So now I am a master plumber or at least an expert on toilets.
Sunday, I took my dog to the dog beach. It was my first and his first visit. It was great. We were only there about an hour which was plenty of time because he was done. The heat gives me migraines and I was starting to feel it. There is a 6ft leash requirement. I brought it but I also brought my horse's lunge line :). It is much longer. I had complete control at all times though so there was no worries about him bothering anyone else or anyone else bothering him. He wasn't afraid of the waves at all. He just walked right in swam out about 10 ft, then would turn around and come back in and do it all over again.
So that is pretty much the excitement of my weekend. Today is a new week. I have my breakfast sandwich that I made at home instead of grabbing one at 7-11. I have my gym clothes. I received my green tea in the mail over the weekend. So, I am ready for the week. I am going to get past this place I have stayed in for months.
Hope everyone had a great weekend!
Friday, May 16, 2008
Thursday, May 15, 2008
Oh, I have to tell you I made this fabulous dinner last night and it was extremely simple, quick and nutritious. The best thing is if you are on WW, you can make it for about 3 points!!!
Here it is:
2 green pepper, cut up
1 onion, cut up
1 can of corn
1 can of black beans
I sauteed the green pepper and onion in olive oil but if you want to keep the fat/points down, use olive oil spray. I didn't think about it at the time. Then, I added the corn and black beans. I bought tortillas that are 81 calories each with .7 g of fat and 2g of fiber (each). I made quesadillas out of it. It worked fairly well but it would have been better with some low fat cheese to hold it all together. I estimated that it made about 6 servings. Without the olive oil, it would have only been 3 pts for a serving and that includes the two tortillas!!!
Don't forget to check out my challenge and sign up! It starts Memorial Day.
Oh, and one more thing. Here is a little video for my core exerciser.
Tuesday, May 13, 2008
You must be signed up by June 16, 2008 to participate.
How do I sign up?
To be part of the challenge: email thinking.thin at yahoo dot com with your name, blog name, blog URL.
What are the rules?
On Monday, May 26th. Email me your name, blog name to thinking.thin at yahoo dot com with your current weight.
- Each Monday email me your weight. Try your best to email me on Mondays. If you don't, it will not be held against you.
- Be honest about your weight.
- Be positive. Remember that this is a lifestyle change, it doesn't happen overnight. Don't get upset if you don't lose (I know easier said than done).
- Visit your other bloggers for support and motivation.
- Have fun!
- Promote the challenge to others. Add a badge to your website.
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How it is going to work?
- Each week when I receive the weekly weigh-ins, I will update this blog with the percentage of weight lost. We are not using pounds because some have more to lose than others. Percentage of body weight is the key.
- Be patient with me as I do work FT, have a PT business out of my home, and try to find time to get to the gym. I will try to update the blog as promptly as I can.
You will have your choice of prizes:
Sandstone coasters w/oak base, Clock Picture Frame, 6x6 Keepsake Box or Iron Trivet
Guess what? I will even give a second place prize! However, you will not have the option to choose from all four items but from the remaining three items.
The best part of the prize is you get to personalize any way you want. Your picture, artwork, poem, whatever you want. After the winner of the contest has been declared, it will take approximately 2 weeks to receive your gift. This will allow me enough time to make the item and send it off. To see other items that I can make check out my website, Picture This Photo Tiles (website not complete). Some things to keep in the back of your head regarding the images you can use for the items if you win: I cannot use copyrighted images (it is against the law) and the pictures must be scanned at 150 DPI minimum (if you need it scanned, I can do that too).
Now, back to me... :)
Damn, it's hot out already! Diana, kudos to you for doing 5k. I tried but couldn't do it. It was too flipping hot and almost immediately got shin splints (note to self, stretch first). Even the dog's tongue was dragging the ground last night when we went for a walk.So, my 30 minute walk was reduced to a 15 minute walk.
Exercise for Tuesday:
15 min walk = 1671 steps, .57 miles, 138 calories burned
15 min core exerciser (simulates horseback riding) INTENDED, but I must confess I didn't do it...I was too tired and went to bed instead.
Monday, May 12, 2008
As I have mentioned, I have been struggling with my head being in the right place and the energy to go exercise. I did nothing this past week that warranted a weight loss. I didn't drink my water. I didn't measure my food. I have been exhausted and was craving red meat so I even had a few cheeseburgers last week (that's odd for me). I had popcorn at the movies yesterday with butter!
I am surprised with the weight loss but I will take it :). Last night, I went to the store and bought me a bunch of fruit and made some breakfast sandwiches for the rest of the week. I am ready to go! So maybe my body was just being nice to me on the scale this morning to give me that extra mental boost that I needed.
And Happy Belated Mommy's Day to everyone!
Thursday, May 8, 2008
Wednesday, May 7, 2008
But again, I wanted to thank you for all the well wishes and prayers.
Now, back to our regularly scheduled program...
I was wearing the pedometer and was averaging about 4000 steps a day, those days where no exercise enters the picture. Near the end of the week I took it off and I haven't put it back on. With everything going on, I haven't been watching what I eat so today is a new day.
I have a WW blueberry muffin and a banana for breakfast. I'm breaking the habit of picking up a croissant at the 7-11 when I get coffee. :)
More importantly, after reading some of the usual blogs, I came across the post from Scale Junkie. She is having a drawing for a brand new bike, courtesy of Lipton! Woo hoo! I want it! I want it! I am not going to go into all the details here. You will just have to check it out yourself! Click here NOW.
Sunday, May 4, 2008
Yesterday, she took this horse to an obstacle course. She reared up. My mom didn't stay on this time. She fell off and hit her head. She is currently in the trauma unit at the hospital. She was unconscious for a short time but is apparently speaking now but doesn't know where she is or how she got there. She can move her arms and legs. She didn't want them to call me because of the concert I was going to with F. I talked to her and she told me to go and didn't want me to worry about her. Yeah ok.
I had a wonderful evening with F and I think our relationship moved to the next level. Of course, this is all dampered by the fact that my mother is in the hospital.
If I am not around for a couple of days, you will know why. So please keep her in your prayers for a speedy recovery.
Friday, May 2, 2008
I have been doing a great deal of soul searching recently. A part of that comes from a friend that is in AA. It has been a long journey of discovery for him. If he continued to think the same way he did before he quit drinking, he wouldn't still be sober today. You have to change the way you think, the way you look at things in your life. In order to do this, he committed himself to going to meetings every single day. He has rarely ever missed a meeting. I have so much respect and admiration for what he is doing! So why do I have a problem with going to the gym every day? It's the thinking, baby!
The way you think of yourself becomes your reality. There have been times when I have suffered from poor self image (usually on bad hair days), lack of confidence (yep, the hair again), lack of confidence and depression. There have been times in my life where I have just said, "I will just always be fat"....blah blah blah. Ever think that it could be a self-fulfilling prophecy?
I have been reading everything I can get my hands on to get my head in the right place. What I have read is changing my self-talk (so if you see me talking to myself, I am really ok, really). So what if I told myself every day that I can do this. I can lose weight and be healthy. I am going to eat well today and I will feel good about myself. Maybe that's the difference between us succeeding and us failing.
So one of the things I read, is to find out what you have been telling yourself. So, I am going to answer the questions here...here goes.
1. Do you have a negative self-image?
Sometimes. Sometimes I feel that if I was thinner I would be happier. I would be able to do all the things I have wanted to do and have been afraid to. I didn't want to bring attention to myself and have everyone point and laugh at the fat girl.
2. Do you lack self-confidence?
Again, sometimes for the same reasons above. It's funny though. Some days I radiate self confidence. I think it's the hair!
3. Do you feel powerless?
No, I don't think so. I do, however feel sometimes that my willpower just isn't there.
4. Do you label yourself in negative or self-deprecating ways?
No, I have never labeled myself as the happy, fat girl. If anything, I avoid the word fat altogether.
So, looking at my answers to those questions I definitely have some work to do on how I think.
So, going forward these are going to be my daily affirmations.
"I weigh 170 pounds. I exercise daily. I take good care of my body. I am proud of what I have accomplished for myself."
By looking after my body through sensible exercise and eating, I'm showing that I love and respect myself. This will make every part of my life better.
The brain wiping/washing shall commence...
Thursday, May 1, 2008
I didn't go to the gym yesterday because I wanted to see how many steps I took in a typical day without exercise. At the end of the day, I removed my new toy from my slacks and to my surprise the numbers were pathetic. I was shocked that I wasn't even close to 10k. I was thinking it would be around 7k or so but no, it was only 2014 steps for a total of .69 miles.
I tend to be one of those people that gets my mind set on something and I go full speed ahead. Then something happens a couple of weeks down the road and all the steam is gone. I want to try something a little different this time seeing this isn't a race to the finish line. You ever watched runners in a long race? They don't start out full speed ahead. They pace theirselves to keep up the stamina. This is what I am going to do. Slow and steady wins the race, right? I decided to look to the experts on the very popular 10k challenge and found this article. I have taken some of the information out of the article, but you can read the full version here.
Don't forget to sign up for the Bloggers' Biggest Loser Challenge. More info here
The realistic way to build up to 10,000 steps a day.
The goal of taking 10,000 steps in a day is a rough equivalent to the Surgeon General's recommendation to accumulate 30 minutes of activity most days of the week. It should be enough to reduce your risk for disease and help you lead a longer, healthier life. But not everyone should start right out trying to get 10K a day. So instead take a comfortable, gradual approach -- the 20% Boost Program.
First, invest in a pedometer. Put a safety string through the pedometer's waist clip and pin it or loop it through a belt loop, so the pedometer isn't dropped down a toilet.
Now follow the simple program below.
The first week, don't change your life at all; just learn your baseline average daily step total. Then, for the next two weeks try to boost that average by 20%. Be sure to follow the directions and fill in the simple log -- it's critical to helping you learn what adds steps to your day and what detracts. If you have questions, reference our FAQ.
The goal is to measure your steps in a typical week. Don't try to walk more than normal. Each morning, reset the pedometer to "0." Set it to show steps (ignore distance and calorie counts). Keep it closed and attached to the front of your waist to the left or right of center. Wear it all day from the moment you wake up until going to bed, except when immersed in water. At night remove it, record the number of steps you've taken in the log, and note if you did any formal exercise (wear your pedometer then, too); for example, "20-minute treadmill walk." Also note if anything caused more (museum tour) or fewer (all-day meeting) steps than usual in your day. Attach your pedometer to your shoe if you bicycle and the pedometer doesn't seem to count your pedaling.
Add steps for all seven days:
Divide by 7:
Multiply by 1.2:
(This is your goal for week #2.)
Your goal is to boost your average daily steps by 20%. Add the total steps taken in week one and divide by seven. Then multiply by 1.2. The result is your new target number for daily steps. So, if you averaged 3,000 steps a day in week one, try for 3,600 a day in week two. How you reach your goal is up to you. Most physical activity counts, including formal workouts (a brisk walk, using most exercise machines) and informal exercise (taking the stairs instead of the elevator or even pacing on the subway platform).
Week#1 Average Steps:
Goal average for week #2:
Add steps for all seven days:
Divide by 7:
Multiply by 1.2:
(This is your goal for week #3.)
If you haven't reached 10,000 steps, or if your goal is substantial weight loss (for which many experts recommend 12,000 to 15,000 steps a day), then boost your steps again by 20%. Calculate your second week's daily average and multiply by 1.2. If aerobic fitness is a goal, try boosting the speed of at least 2,000 to 4,000 of the steps you're already doing.
Average Steps Week#2:
Goal average for week #3:
Weeks #4 and beyond:
Some people find that just with three weeks of effort they've gotten their daily step average close to or beyond 10,000. But many find it takes several more weeks of boosting by 20% each week until they can create a 10,000 step-per-day habit. Even if you only try for 10% more each week, you'll soon find that your days are full of opportunities for more steps. You'll also find that in short order you won't need a pedometer to tell you how you're doing. For example, if you get off the train a stop early or take a walk at lunch you know you'll hit your total, but otherwise you come up short. However, consider using your pedometer whenever you need a step-check.
Answers to some common questions:
How many steps do I need?
Here are some rough targets:
For long term health and reduced chronic disease risk:
10,000 steps a day
For successful, sustained weight loss:
12,000 - 15,000 steps a day
To build aerobic fitness:
Make 3,000 or more of your daily steps fast