Tuesday, July 28, 2009
Friday night was the best night, of course that could be because I drank more that night. :) Many of the people that I wanted to see didn't show up. There were a few of my friends back from the day that did show up so I was extremely happy about that. The girls, some of them had gained a little bit of weight but they still looked fabulous. A number of the men improved with age. KJ, for one. He has aged very well. It's too bad he couldn't show up Saturday night too. Around 9:30 or so I decided to go outside because it was flipping hot inside the clubhouse and everyone was going to be heading to one of the local stomping grounds in a few minutes. I went outside and was quite surprised when J was standing there. We went and sat down and talked for a few. Everyone was leaving to head to the local bar and my ride (I was not in any shape to drive) asked me if I was going with him. I told him I would find a ride. J said he would drive me up there. J drove me up to the bar and we sat in the parking lot for a few minutes talking about old memories and yes, we kissed. One of those kisses that makes you weak in the knees...that perfect kiss, no fumbling around, the perfect in sync kiss. *sigh He told me had to go pick up his son so he couldn't stay. I kissed him goodbye and headed inside.
Drinks were flowing, lots of laughing, catching up with old friends and one of my bestest, bestest friends throughout high school came in. I haven't seen her in probably 18 years or so. She looked fabulous. We talked for a few, promised to keep in touch and then I was headed back to the hotel. J was coming back.
I had a wonderful time with J that night, what little time we spent together. As much as I would love to have something with him, I don't believe that is in the cards. I still don't think I'm his "type". I think for the evening, I filled a void for him...cured the lonliness for just a bit. I haven't called him since that night and he hasn't called me. I figured I would call him this weekend see if he wants to shoot some pool or something with some friends and I. I don't want to lose touch with him again. We will see, though. I have learned that having high hopes for anything usually ends in disappointment.
Saturday night was not nearly as fun as Friday night. I still attribute some of that to my lack of drinking on Saturday night. Another reason is that it was so hot and humid, it was miserable. The clubhouse at the resort we were at was stifling and even the porch out to the water was just as bad. I would just be standing there and I could feel sweat running down my back. ICK!!
One of my former classmates is a stripper down in Key West and her boyfriend is the spitting image of George Clooney. Oh yes, not a close resemblance but I'm talking pretty much his twin when he has that rugged look about him. After the clubhouse closed, my friends S and T wanted to go the closest country bar. I warned them that on Saturdays, it is mostly 18 year olds. Yes, they let them in! We drove 30 minutes, paid our $12, used the restroom and walked out. It was wall to wall 18 year olds, ughhh. We ended up meeting up with an old friend of T's and his girlfriend at a Tiki bar. The tiki bar wasn't bad. We played some darts and pool. We tried getting the girlfriend to play but she had the personality of a rock. She wouldn't talk to us, she wouldn't play darts, she wouldn't play pool, she just stood there like a statue. T's friend was outgoing and fun and I just didn't see the connection between the two. It was such an odd couple.
We ended the night about 3a. I had pretty much enough and was exhausted. There was a buffet on Sunday to bid farewell to everyone but I decided to skip it. As fun as it was to see everyone and catch up on the last 20 years, all my old high school insecurities came back in full force.
They are already talking about either a yearly cruise or the next reunion in 5 years. I will be thin for it, if it kills me!
Wednesday, July 22, 2009
As anxious I am for the reunion, I don't want to hear any more bad stories about the ones that didn't show up because something bad happened to them. I know it's a fact of life and the process of getting older, but it sucks.
So here's living for today! You never know when tomorrow may not be here. As a side note, J and I will be getting together after the reunion for a drink or two. You never know, maybe we can rekindle something that happened 20+ years ago.
Sunday, July 19, 2009
So everyone send their looking thin vibes my way :)
Wednesday, July 15, 2009
What are the 59 Health Benefits that Made Acai Berry So Famous?
Prolongs Your Life
Increases Your Energy
Increases Your Overall Strength
Helps you Look and Feel Younger
Helps You Maintain Healthy Blood Pressure
Helps You Maintain Healthy Cholesterol Levels
Promotes Normal Blood Sugar
Enhances Sexual Function
Helps You Lose Weight
Relieves Headaches and Dizziness
Improves Quality of Sleep
Improves Your Vision
Strengthens Your Heart
Inhibits Lipid Peroxidation
Improves Disease Resistance
Strengthens Your Immune System
Helps Your Body Fight Cancer
Protects Your Precious DNA
Inhibits Tumor Growth
Reduces the Toxic Effects of Chemotherapy and Radiation
Helps to Build Strong Blood
Helps with Chronic Dry Cough
Fights Inflammation and Arthritis
Improves Lymphocyte Count
Improves Menopausal Symptoms
Prevents Morning Sickness
Strengthens Your Muscles and Bones
Supports Normal Kidney Function
Improves Your Memory
Supports Healthy Liver Function
Alleviates Anxiety and Stress
Improves Your Mood
Improves Your Digestion
Helps You Maintain Healthy Gums
Protects Children’s Health
Promotes Overall Wellness
Increases workout recovery
Increases injury recovery
Helps to Reduce Physical Injuries
Relieves Arthritis Pain
Helps to Clear Skin of Warts
Reduces the Occurrence of Seizures
Helps Improve & Even Cure Leukemia
Fights General Depression
Supports Weight Loss through Fat Loss
Helps Slow Down the Aging Process
Provides all Vital Vitamins
Contains Several Important Minerals
Is an extremely Powerful Free Radical Fighter
Acai has very High Levels of Fibers
Cleanses and Detoxifies the Body of Infectious Toxins
Helps to Prevent Heart Problems
Improves Mental Clarity/Focus
Now, here is what WebMed says about it:
Can acai berries boost weight loss?
Scientists are learning more about the functional power of superfoods, such as the acai berry. Although acai is touted in some weight loss products, few studies have tested the benefit of acai in promoting weight loss.
For now, plenty of research supports eating a diet rich in antioxidants. There’s no doubt that berries and other fruits are a key part of any healthy diet promoting weight loss. The jury’s still out on whether there is something special about acai’s ability to shed excess pounds.
Why are acai berries used in beauty products?
Some cosmetics and beauty products contain acai oil in the ingredient list. That’s because acai oil is a powerhouse of antioxidants. Studies show that acai oil may be a safe alternative to other tropical oils used in beauty products such as facial and body creams, anti-aging skin therapies, shampoos and conditioners, and other products. When acai oil is processed and stored long-term, the antioxidant levels remain high.
Do acai berries and acai juice have any side effects?
If you have pollen allergies or have a known hypersensitivity to acai or similar berries, you may want to avoid this fruit. When eaten in moderate amounts, though, acai is likely safe.
Here is another link with information on the acai http://www.acai-health.com/info.php.
Tuesday, July 14, 2009
So far the good/decent foods have been: blueberry muffins, meatloaf with mashed potatoes, thick crust pizza, cheesy potatoes, chocolate chocolate chip pudding, fudge brownie, white chocolate macadamia nut cookie, rice with beans and sausage.
Many wonder why I have decided to go with NutriSystem instead of just buying Lean Cuisines or something at the store and doing it my own for possibly less money and possibly better tasting food. I'm going to tell you why...
I did NutriSystem many years ago and had success with it, prior to them having as many choices as they have now. I had lost 40lbs with it fairly easy. Of course, I didn't keep it off. Here's my thinking though. I have to dish out $300 a month for the food. That's a lot of money up front for food. I'm one of those that if I don't feel like eating what I have for lunch/dinner, I will get something else normally. Paying $300 a month for food, doesn't allow me that choice. I don't have to think about the food so much anymore. I just fill out the number of each that I want for breakfasts, lunches and dinners and I'm done. Granted, I still need to go to the store and buy a few things like veggies, fruits, the occasional roll, milk on occasion but you get the point. I don't plan on doing this forever because I know me well enough to know that I can't. I want to eat healthier and eating processed food despite how many vitamins you fill it with doesn't necessarily make it healthier. I just need the kickstart. Time will tell...
Monday, July 13, 2009
My first day on NutriSystem was a success...yay! I haven't had a successful day at much of anything lately so this is HUGE! Of course, I spend the first few days of the week at my folks' house to save on driving time to my job and pack up my food and guess what?! I forgot my flipping breakfasts! I am improvising though by bagging up some kashi dry cereal.
I will post my weight next week after I see how I do for the week. I am going to be blogging again if it kills me. It helps keep me on track and I miss you ladies.
Saturday, July 11, 2009
Luckily, we had no children and he never had any children so there aren't any children out there missing their father. May he rest in peace.
Friday, July 10, 2009
Yes, I know I haven't updated this in months. Things haven't changed much. I still have no time. I have unfortunately gained some of the weight back that I lost. However, I am starting NutriSystem on Sunday. I just don't have the time to cook healthy meals these days so more times than not, dinners have been fast food for the past few months, not good for the waistline! So, in an effort to get everything under control I'm going to try to be able to afford NutriSystem to try to get things under control. My appetite has been out of control. I am a flipping bottomless pit lately but of course I attribute it to the lack of nutrition.
I haven't seen the gym in months. It's all rather depressing.
The job, well ....it's a job. I was recently sick and had to call in and I was docked 8 hours and I'm salary. Granted, I'm expected to work over 40 hours without extra pay but I get docked 8 hours for being sick. So, that should tell ya something without me going into too much detail. I like the people I work with, at least the majority so I'm going to stick it out.
Quite frankly, I hate where my life is at but I'm trying to look at it as a temporary situation and I'm working on trying to fix the parts that I can. I have my 20 yr reunion next weekend and hoped I would be thin for it. Hmm, I guess I will have to cut off 1/2 my body to do that...lol.
Maybe tomorrow, I can find a few minutes to come see your blogs to see how you guys are doing.
Saturday, May 9, 2009
I have been trying to eat clean the past couple of weeks, been doing so so. I haven't lost any weight to speak of but haven't gained either. I guess that is something but I really wanted to be down for my 20 year reunion coming up in July. I really need to get my head back into it. It's just so hard when there aren't enough hours in the day. Now, on Sundays when I'm at my mom's I am trying to cook several days worth of food to try to get past the time part.
No love life. No time for one, which is fine. Every man I meet isn't worth my time anyway, lol. Although, I have to say I ran into my future ex-husband the other day. I was walking through the hospital and ran into him. I don't know what part of the hospital he worked in. He winked at me (he probably winks at everyone) but dang, he was fine. :)
So, there you have it in a nutshell....I have no time. I hope life settles down. I miss you all. I hope all is well in your world. I haven't even been able to check up on you guys. I can't use blogger at work (dang job). I'm not giving up on the blog and I do plan on updating when I can but if you want to keep in touch, let me know and I will send you my personal email address.
Wednesday, March 25, 2009
I just really, really hope I'm not in over my head. Once I have adjusted to this getting up at the ass crack of dawn again and I'm not so exhausted at 7p, I'm going to spend an evening to catch up on all of you. I want to know what's going on in your lives!!!!
Thursday, March 19, 2009
I hope all is well in your worlds and I will be checking up on all of you soon. Miss you guys.
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
So anyway, because of the EKG he was really concerned about me and didn't even want me to drive myself to the emergency room. I did drive myself to the emergency room. I get to the ER and was immediately brought in. I was shocked. They did chest Xrays again and another EKG and a bunch of blood work. They hooked me up to heart monitors, oxygen and an IV. The Dr came by at one point asked what the problem was and I told him and I never saw him again. All I found out was that my chest xrays were clear, lungs were clear, no heart attack, heart looked good, oxygen levels looked good, I wasn't pregnant (duh!), I still had an irregular EKG and I had chest pain. My prognosis was that I had chest pain. They don't know why. They don't know if it will go away. They don't know what's causing it but I can go home. How's that for a $4800 hospital bill, not including the doctor's fee (for the whole 2 minutes he spent with me). I will be interested to see what his fee will be.
I can't get in to see my doctor right now because now I am in between insurance because apparently my insurance stopped Feb 7th and I haven't gotten my Cobra paperwork yet. I had to pay $500 on Sunday between the urgent care and ER and I just can't put out anymore money at this point without having a paycheck yet....lol. No wonder I'm having chest pains. I am feeling a little bit better but still not 100%. The bright side is that I am down to 267. I haven't really been trying much and obviously I haven't been working out.
Once, I have some structure in my life again I will be back. Right now, it's just so difficult. I need structure. I miss structure (I think). Just know, I haven't forgotten you guys. I think about all of ya and hope you're doing well. I will be harassing all of you soon enough :).
Thursday, February 12, 2009
Wednesday, February 11, 2009
So, I was offered the job. I declined the job and now I am waiting to hear again. I feel like I am at a used car lot.
Monday, February 9, 2009
Thursday, February 5, 2009
On another note, I did meet someone yesterday. His name is S. I'm not sure exactly how I feel towards him yet. He kind of gave me a hard time yesterday over something stupid and not sure I like that. Anyway, the pictures I saw of him were very nice, a little misleading but not horribly. I'm sure people have said the same about me too. The one problem I did have is he was a little too touchy feely with me an hour or two into our meeting. So, not sure how I feel about it just yet. Time will tell and quite honestly I don't really care either way.
Tuesday, February 3, 2009
Today, I am off to see the doctor to get all my prescriptions refilled. Thursday I am off to see the dentist to get my teefers cleaned. Now, I need to make an eye appointment. Insurance will be gone soon. Severance will be gone soon. *sigh
So here's hoping for good news on Thursday or for the 500 other jobs I have applied for in the past two months.
Friday, January 30, 2009
The recruiter called me a little bit ago to find out if I had heard from him. Nope. So, I sit here and wait. Stressed, excited, nervous....you name it, my emotions are running the gammit.
I have one and half severance checks left, so the nerves are a little bit frayed.
I haven't done much lately in regards to my "diet" but am still holding at where I was. My good intentions to get to the gym everyday went by the wayside. I spend most of my days looking for a job, revising resume to fit the job, creating cover letters, etc. That has been the priority in my life for obvious reasons. However, Monday I am forcing myself out of bed in the morning and going to the gym then look for a job (if needed). My 20 year high school reunion is in July (yikes) and I definitely would like to be about 40-50lbs thinner. I can do it, if I really, really work hard.
So cross your fingers that my phone rings soon with good news, before I lose my mind :).
5:25P Update: Still no phone call *sigh. Recruiter just called again to tell me that it's not a bad sign that he hasn't called. Either way they have to contact her, it's in their contract. She didn't want to call him again and be pushy. Good! I don't want a pushy recruiter that works for them be the cause of me not getting the job. So, as of right now....nada, zilch, nothing.
Friday, January 23, 2009
As I was leaving, I did ask the IT Director if he had any concerns about my abilities to perform the job and he told me no. He had told me that there are three other candidates (bleh) and that I should know something within three weeks. It was at that point, that I did something I haven't done in the past but all these job interviewing tips tell you to do it. I asked for the position. He told me that it was good to know that I wanted the position and he would be in touch. The recruiter called me later and left a message that he told her he was excited about me. It's definitely a good sign but these three other candidates need to bomb now :). I sent out my thank you letters last night, so cross your fingers. I will continue to send out resumes just in case.
Tuesday, January 20, 2009
As for my interview yesterday, I apparently passed because I have a face to face on Thursday! I'm definitely nervous because not only will I be meeting with the Director that I talked to yesterday but also the Manager and two of the programmers. The recruiter has already called my references so I think that might be a good sign and she told me that he (the director) had told her that he is glad he didn't overlook my resume. I'm thinking that this is a good sign.
Here is an excerpt from my monthly horoscope...keep in mind my face-to-face interview is on the 22nd.
Your first sign that something good is about to happen will be on the monumental meeting of the Sun and Jupiter, an annual event that I call the "luckiest day of the year." These two will meet in your home sector over the two days, January 23-24. Put a star on both!
You can also expect to see luck with your career at about the same time that the Sun and Jupiter meet over January 23-24.
Your very best career day of the month - and possibly of the New Year - will be Friday, January 23, but you will also feel excitement one day before on Thursday, January 22.
Then, while having coffee with Diana and Natalia, a corporate recruiter from one of the companies that I had sent a resume to called. I am still waiting to hear back from him. Things might be looking up!!!
Monday, January 19, 2009
I have a phone interview this morning that I am feeling really good about. It's odd in a way. I'm not feeling good necessarily about the interview, but the job. The job has been posted since November so they have had a hard time filling it. I have my theories why but not ready to divulge that yet...I don't want to jinx anything. Do you all believe in fate? I do. I believe things happen for a reason. This job is at a hospital and this hospital is the one my step father has been frequenting, 5 miles from my parent's house. Now, my parents live 55 miles away. Yes, it will be a very long drive for me if I get the job but it probably won't take any longer than when I was driving 23 miles because I won't be driving with the traffic. The secret about this job is it will get my valuable experience in the medical field and I could go anywhere. My marketability will triple, if not more. This is a good thing! My mom is all excited. She thinks if I get the job that I will move closer to them, who knows.
As for A (6pack), he is occasionally talking to me when I ignore him. It's funny how that works. When he no longer gets any sort of attention from me and others are paying attention to me, he comes around a little bit more. It has taken me a bit and I am not totally there yet but if this is what he is going to do, then he doesn't deserve me. He will realize what he threw away when this other woman gets bored with him and I'm not there to pick up the pieces. Last night, he told me that I am way too nice sometimes. Yes, he's right. I told him that obviously being nice hasn't gotten me very far in many aspects of my life. He didn't respond and that's ok. I want someone to appreciate me while I am there, not after I am gone and at one time he did. So, moving on. I don't need his issues.
I want to thank all of you that have left your comments about asshat, it has helped.
The other good news in my life is that I am down a couple more pounds and I am back to the gym today. It's time, again to concentrate on me. This has always been my problem. I spend all my time thinking about everyone else and I forget about numero uno. One of these days, I will figure it out how to make it all about me.
The new me is gradually emerging and pushing the funk out of the way. After my interview today, I will be coming to visit you guys to see what you all have been up to as I have been neglecting all of you lately (nothing personal) . I am missing all of you wonderful ladies.
Monday, January 12, 2009
I think A and I are done before it even started. For the past several weeks, he hasn't said much to me. He is going through a lot personally and he suffers from major bi-polar, not a good mixture. I have given him his space because I know he just shuts down to deal with things and will not talk to anyone. However, it has been several weeks and quite frankly I didn't know where I stood anymore. I had suspicions he was talking to some other chic in the game we play, which isn't a big deal normally but if you aren't spending the hours talking to me anymore and you are with someone else, I begin to wonder. This "chic" also knew that him and I had something going on and that I was crazy about him but she tried slithering her way in anyway. So anyway, I did talk to him yesterday and his first response to me was why do I need to make this about me. Um, because I am going through a lot too and would like you to be there asshole! He told me he is in shut down mode because of everything going on in his life and doesn't feel like talking to anyone. But yet, him and this chic were talking all night in game last night and logged off together. How can someone go from telling me they are crazy about me to spending hours with someone else almost over night? I don't get it. I'm sure he will be back in normal form but not sure I will be here. Men suck.
Monday, January 5, 2009
Good news, I am down 5.4 lbs this week. Yay, me! I am back to 269.4 and I think I can attribute that to my diet being 90% fruits and veggies this week.
My back is still bothering me a little bit but I'm going to attempt to go back to my Cardio Salsa class tonight to get back into the groove of my exercise.
I have a phone interview tomorrow. Wish me luck! I haven't interviewed in 11 years so am quite nervous but I bought a couple of interview books and have been all over the net trying to prepare for it so hopefully I won't choke!!!
Hope everyone had a happy new year.