I have been in my own little world for a long time now. I haven't had much desire to be blogging although I do miss checking up on you guys. I apologize and even though I'm not checking up on you and leaving you messages, I do think about you. For the past several days, I've been sick. Not sick, in having a cold. Actually, I'm really not sure what is wrong. I have had chest pain for five days. Saturday night I had a fever of 102 and decided that Sunday morning I would go to the urgent care clinic. Sunday morning I woke up and the fever was pretty much gone but felt nauseous and ended up getting sick, all of which are not good signs. I went to the clinic and the doctor (which I have to tell you about) did chest X-rays and an EKG. The chest X-rays came back ok but the EKG showed some irregularities. I know nothing about EKGs but it had some dips where I guess there shouldn't have been. He was concerned because of me having Lupus. Now, before I go any further I have to tell you about this doctor. I felt like crap. I looked like hell...literally. I did nothing with my hair, no makeup, crappy clothes on...I didn't care when I left the house. Of course, I should have. This doctor was fine. He was 36, had four degrees, was thinking about going back to school for law, I could go on and on. So, I knew I had to have the EKG and if he was going to be doing it I was going to tell him that he was going to have to take me out on a date first before he could see my breasts....lol but luckily it was the nurse. I did tell her. I'm sure she ended up telling him I said that.
So anyway, because of the EKG he was really concerned about me and didn't even want me to drive myself to the emergency room. I did drive myself to the emergency room. I get to the ER and was immediately brought in. I was shocked. They did chest Xrays again and another EKG and a bunch of blood work. They hooked me up to heart monitors, oxygen and an IV. The Dr came by at one point asked what the problem was and I told him and I never saw him again. All I found out was that my chest xrays were clear, lungs were clear, no heart attack, heart looked good, oxygen levels looked good, I wasn't pregnant (duh!), I still had an irregular EKG and I had chest pain. My prognosis was that I had chest pain. They don't know why. They don't know if it will go away. They don't know what's causing it but I can go home. How's that for a $4800 hospital bill, not including the doctor's fee (for the whole 2 minutes he spent with me). I will be interested to see what his fee will be.
I can't get in to see my doctor right now because now I am in between insurance because apparently my insurance stopped Feb 7th and I haven't gotten my Cobra paperwork yet. I had to pay $500 on Sunday between the urgent care and ER and I just can't put out anymore money at this point without having a paycheck yet....lol. No wonder I'm having chest pains. I am feeling a little bit better but still not 100%. The bright side is that I am down to 267. I haven't really been trying much and obviously I haven't been working out.
Once, I have some structure in my life again I will be back. Right now, it's just so difficult. I need structure. I miss structure (I think). Just know, I haven't forgotten you guys. I think about all of ya and hope you're doing well. I will be harassing all of you soon enough :).